Coping: Seeing Your Personal “Source Code”

image(Payson, AZ)  Note to self:  Send a copy of this morning’s column to Dr. Rob, our genius-level friend who is on the leading edge of photobiomodulation.

While some people’s personal “energy” gets turned on by places like Sedona, AZ, I’m not one of them.  For me, Sedona was beautiful (north of the town up to Flagstaff), but spirit-wise, it is just another place.

On the other hand,  the high mountain country around Payson does seem to have quite an impact on my personal awareness. 

This morning I want to share a venture “off the page” as I show you how to “see your own source code and then speculate a bit about what it all MIGHT mean.

This was a purely accidental discovery.

Accessing Your Personal Source Code

Up front:  I didn’t go looking for this.  It just happened first about six-months ago.

I had been sleeping peacefully when I woke up (as people will do now and then) in the middle of the night.

It was 1:52 AM.

I know what time it was because I have a small Indiglo-lit portable alarm clock next to the bed.  Bright bluish-green/.gray background lighting.

I had grabbed it, pressed the snooze-button to turn on the display backlight, and yes, 1:52 AM.

Bright as hell, by the way.  No mistaking anything.  After that, I closed my eyes and started to go back to sleep.

Cue the weirdness:

As I was drifting off to sleep, I was vaguely aware of keeping my internal consciousness softly focused on that white/light gray rectangle of light that was (as any scientist would tell you) retinal afterburn.

A quick note about afterburn:

While many people claim to see auras around people’s faces when they stare at them long enough, they (honestly) claim to see an outline around the person they are looking at.  This is afterburn.

The eyes see something with well-defined edges, and because of the mechanics of how people’s eyes work, they may be tricked – in some cases easily – into seeing an outline of a person’s face when they close their eyes.  Upon opening them again, they may also see what might be interpreted as a “halo” around them.

The effect also works if you can hold your focus on a person’s face for 20-seconds or so.  You will see around people (and objects against a high-contrast background) something of a “halo” evolve.  This may have spiritual aspects to it, but if you look at a person a long while (a minute or longer) and then look at an even surface (like a wall), you will see the outline of their face.

Welcome to retinal afterburn.  >>Many people call this an aura.<<  Because color may vary (based on backgrounds and lighting) all kinds of mystical crap is attributed to it.

Honestly, I don’t buy it.  I’ve seen way too much optical science and I know how to trick the eyes.  That ain’t woo-woo.  What it does mean is that you have become acutely aware of your optical channel…and that may help get down to yours personal source code.

You “source code” is different, however and very, very strange.

The way the phenomena seems to work is as follows:

You must begin in a nearly-asleep state and just ready to flip over into the full sleep mode.  Have to be in a blacked out room, too.  We’re looking to get down in the noise floor of what goes on in your brain.

Second:  You need an even BRIGHT light source to blast your eyes while you are still semi-asleep.

You will apply a very, very bright flash of light,  and then watch the afterburn as you float off toward sleep.

That’s it: You simply watch the rectangle of pretty even afterburn

In my case, as soon as the whitish-green afterburn had faded to a medium/to slightly dark (60%) black if you’re into graphics), a series of symbols started to fly by.  They were being painted on the gray rectangle.

I don’t know if you remember the Matrix screen-saver – where the odd symbols sort of waterfall down, but this was a single line of black letters/symbols and it was flashing as lines of code going by.

It was some seriously weird stuff.

Following that experience, I have only been able to accomplish it a few times since.  But in all cases, it was a) waking up in the middle of the night in a blacked-out room, b) flashing a bright light source (my alarm clock), and finally c) watching the afterburn fade off (in other words looking at the optic nerve input semi-consciously, without getting to intense. 

It only works when not forced and it works best during your normal sleeping cycle (at least it does for me).

I am using the Indiglo lit alarm as my even “light pump” and I haven’t tried to optimize the color spectrum to enhance the effect.  I’m guessing that the duration of afterburn (or dissolve rate) will vary based on colors.  I don’t  have a precise color measurement of the Indiglo but using the conversion tool over here, I would put it somewhere around  the 477 nm range – which translates to rgb(0,200, 255),Hex: #00c8ff.

What I would expect is that if you pump (light input) in the 500-620 nm range, since that seems to “pump” my eyes very well.

The whole field of photobiomodulation is just now opening up as a new branch of science.  In a report, I mentioned a company up in Washington state that owns some key technology in photobiomodulation as relates to halting (or seriously slowing) macular degeneration.  A discussion of how photobiomodulation works in the clinical setting may be found on the company website over here.

I won’t go into a detailed discussion of how this works, but the main point is that light-pumping at a certain mix of frequencies, apparently tells the body to do certain beneficial things.

The effect we’re talking about this morning is not a direct application of that, but when I first saw symbology streaming by in the afterburn dissolve, it was a genuine WTF? moment.

Back to technique, for a second:  If you do focus too much, you will wake up – and instead of letting the material just paint onto your optical channel, you will mentally refocus the optical channel and the effect ends.

I have spent a fair bit of time, going through various font dictionaries and purposed “alien symbols” over at Google.  Here’s as sample.

Could there be information buried down at the “personal source code” level?  Or, is it just character inputs to the optic nerve center “back-feeding” and projecting onto this “inner display panel” when the mind is quiet and when a stable semi-conscious state arises…we just don’t know.

Expanding The Personal Source Code Concept

Let me zoom out for you for a minute and give you some really interesting thoughts about what the discovery of an “inner source code” could mean.

1.  While its inner workings may not be clear (yet) it might be that”inner source” is some kind of expression of the brain’s optic nerve from some source.

2.  If this is the case, we next face the challenge of working “back to source” to figure out where this is coming from if the effect proves to be repeatable.

a.  Is is somehow related to dreaming?

b.  Is it, possible (as suggested i8n this PBS special) that we are living in a “computer simulation?”  If so, is this “source code” display a tool to work back to find who/what is programming us?

This is a terribly interesting area of research because it would explain a LOT of purported phenomena.

Not only does it give us some ideas about what might be going on with “alien abduction” reports, for example.  But, it would also explain why many human addictions happen:  People – free-will humans – might pursue substance abuse because it provides for a way to “see past” coded blocks on our “greater vision.”

Just as an example, consider something like the UFO phenomena.  A large number of people claim to have seen them, but could wider recognition be blocked down at this “source code” level?  In other words, is something pumping us in order to hide things that might otherwise be visible to us in the here and now?

Coded blocks might also explain that whole class of missing objects which we have previously described anecdotally.

Could it be that finer points of music, art, and so on, could be similarly controlled at this source code layer? 

Everyone I know who has used psychedelics describes a state of overwhelmingly powerful states of existence when under the influence.  Colors, sounds, and tactile experience becomes almost excruciating.

But which aspect is “open” seems to depend on which drug is in use.  It’s like meth users report one change in state, alcohol abusers another, while heroin, chronic pot smokers, and so on, right up through hits of windowpane, all report a different experience.  Sometimes, drugs are used to done down extraneous noise; this would be some of the meth folks and along a continuum to Adderall and other ADHD meds.

As a culture, we’re just learning to tweak our own “treble and bass” settings, which is what drugs do.  But once you see information going by painted in your head, you begin to wonder “What the hell was that?”

Photobiomodulation may provide for a new approach to psychology.  Because our personal “source code” might be dampening inputs we desire.  When we begin to experiment with different tools to open up this realm, it’s easy to get sacked and fooled into an existence where the tool, not the objective, begins to overwhelm us.  That is the danger of addiction.

So there you have it.  Part one of the strange insights I have been rolling around in my mind’s eye up here in the hills for use in the event a second novel is needed. Sales of the first one are disappointing.

There’s an even stranger report coming tomorrow morning. Not to give it away too early, but it’s called Engineering the AfterLife.  And yes, there may be a simple reason why the world of woo-woo seems to be on the increase…

If you have done any similar work in the semi-conscious light-pumped state, please drop me a line or post a comment on your experiences in our comment box below… thanks!

Remember:  If Life is really a simulation, it would make sense to leave a key hidden for players to find.  Question is:  Is this one of them?

The Gambler’s Notebook

To say I have been lucky on this trip is something of an understatement.

I hit for $442 on machine Keno last night as we were wrapping up time with the kids here in Arizona.

That means after more than a week on the road, my out of pocket cost for gambling in three casinos is just $200-bucks including some very bad blackjack bets ($200 on a hand) made at the peak of the cold/flu both Elaine and I are under the weather with.

We will head for home this morning but honestly, we’re about “casinoed out.”  Tomorrow’s report should be from somewhere else.

Write when you break-even,



Coping: Seeing Your Personal “Source Code” — 12 Comments

  1. When I was very young age 4 to 9 , among many woo things….I used to be able to relax into the sleep state you described but keep my mostly eyes open. If I would focus on the wall at the foot of my bed I could start to see a “net” like pattern emerge,it did not matter about the ambient light in the room… At first faint, then brighter, almost like plasma. This grid I would see would be like a wire mesh grid about 8 to 12 ” pattern. At times it would be stationary, other times it would move and cycle in different directions as if out of phase. I would ask my parents to sit with me and see if they could see it to. They never did, and chalked it up to an over active imagination. This went on for years. To this day I have no idea what it was. One big hologram / holo deck we are living in ? I would love to know.

  2. About your “source code” experience: I have been using the semi twilight state just before sleep for years to watch the party going on behind the eyelids. Much of the time it’s just a vague fog with ill defined, random movement. Occasionally, everything will jump into a repeating, streaming geometric and colorful patterns.Very rarely, I will begin to see vague landscapes like scenes and sometimes people. Never been able to interpret anything useful out of it.

    Never took any psychedelics. A little weed in my early twenties is all and I don’t do the neuron killing nectar of the distillers these days either.

  3. Here are my thoughts. I can see auras, they are not after burn images. The aura ebbs and flows, and has a color to it, I have seen white, black, green, and blue auras. Some highly evolved souls can see all colors and they see the aura ALL around the body, so I do not agree that it is what you are describing, although, the effect you are describing does exist, but not in my experience of seeing auras. Once, I went to see a man describing some intense spiritual experiences and he had dedicated his life to helping others, even at 200′ away, in the audience, I could see his aura radiating 25-30′ from his body and it was radiantly white. That is definitely not an after burn.

    I have also practiced Kriya Yoga. One of the techniques they teach for meditation, is a certain way to press on the eyelids, for a certain time, this triggers an experience similar to what you are talking about, and if done correctly, actually results in the following: a black background, with an indigo dove shaped portal, that one concentrates on without mental activity, and spiritual experiences then occur. I found this a very amazing experience, the DOVE shaped deeply colored indigo portal, that stayed and did not disappear.

    Just yesterday, I was pondering over this ability that birds have to see magnetic fields for honing. I was wondering if humans have it, so I googled it. Here is the article:


    I think there is FAR more to the human eye than has been discovered yet.

    A book that I can highly recommend is “Initiation” by Elisabeth Haich. IF a person can comprehend that book, their lives would be transformed. IT is a studiously effortful read but one that is well worth it; and once will not be enough, one will find themselves reading it more than once to practice the concepts within.

    People who are precongnitive state that the ‘inner sight’ reveals itself like a moving picture, one sees exactly the future exactly as if a movie is playing on the inner screen of the mind. These can be revealed in deep meditation, in dreams, in visions (waking and asleep), and when one is extremely tired and they close their eyes and, as you experienced, the ‘screen starts to play’.

    That is what I wanted to share tonight.

  4. Its the desert that does it for me. Suddenly, I feel a weight lifts and its like I can get more air into my lungs. I love to be able to see the horizon but I’m afraid that the ocean horizon is just obscured by that great mass of wet and scary water that you have to look past to see it.

    Desert country plays a big part in my happy place that inhabit most days at work.

  5. Accessing Your Personal Source Code, That is weird that you posted this article I had a experience last week that was a little mind blowing and had no Ideal what to call it. Any way I was in my shop just got done with a project and thought I’m going to set down and rest before I clean my mess up, I started to dose off and on half awake or half a sleep I don’t know which, and this view came into focus it was black and white of symbolic type symbols but not streaming by but stationary like on a sheet of paper but not paper 2 dimensional can’t remember if back ground was white or black, First thought was this view was a after burn image effect but it did not act like one it was sharp, detailed, and did not fade away, Next thought I had was how can I paint this or photograph it It was that detailed and good of an image and it would sell like hot cakes if I could reproduce it, would loved to have a photographic memory on this one. This image had a flow to it, It was not up or down or left to right, right to left no rolls or columns just hundreds of images Kind of like hieroglyphics images of Egypt or Aztec type. they were or most was segregated by curved and straight lines most was parallel type lines like fencing in of symbols the only symbol I remember is a bird side view not flying but facing to the right, I remember 3 symbols that was colored, Their was something guiding me through this maze of symbols it was not a voice but I was being commutated to in a weird way , I don’t have the words to describe what it was or where it was coming from maybe it was coming from me I don’t know. But anyway each symbol represented something about me, the colored ones was something out of wake or a problem. Then I was guided to the last symbol in the dream. This is your future as I was looking at it It opened up to thousands of pages of symbols then I was awakened out of my sleep or what ever I was in. So I would say Personal Source Code. fits the bill of that experience. It was like a program code of what I was and what I will be.

  6. Up in till now I always thought retinal Burn was caused by a scantily clad Beauty at the Beach, Alas I was wrong

  7. “retinal afterburn” and auras are not the same thing.

    In a holographic universe, you only see what you are programmed to see by your beliefs.

    If you want to see auras, you must believe that you can.

  8. light pumping, eh? What you have discovered is the means by which stars (our Sun) cause biological evolution on their orbiting planets, especially the jump and leap types. This is why so many folks are making a big deal of the Wave X phenomenon. It supposedly at some point will cause the Sun to emit a blast of white light that makes us ascend. I can’t wait.

  9. So much for your opinion or auras. There are cameras that take pictures of auras, I always had the pictures taken whenever my boys and I came across them at state/county fairs and psychic fairs. We have had several artist friends who have proven their ability to see these naturally by making colored sketches before one of the photos is taken. I have also had a couple taken where one or two faces appeared in the photos amongst the colors. A real psychic can tell who these brings are and why they are there. There are also many medical intuitives around who can tell you your previous medical history and current medical condition by observing your aura.

    Ingo Swann, in his research at SRI (with Putoff and Targ) to discover whether remote viewing could be taught or not, discovered that humans have at least 18 senses, not just the five or six science recognized. The two most common were the ability to always know what direction was north, and the second was to always know the correct time without a clock. Since these other senses manifest spontaneously in all cultures around the world, they concluded that these senses are innate in all humans and are suppressed in the main by cultural values. The most fearful thing for humans is not snakes or spiders or monsters, it is another human who can read your thoughts and memories like an open book. This is so dangerous to the current human power structure that there are actually teams who monitor and hunt down and kill humans who show excessive abilities to do this. But I digress.

    Until you at least know what these additional senses are that were discovered, you will only be like a kindergartner dabbling in these things, and your social programming will inevitably lead you down the path of superstition as happens so often in regard to non-physical phenomenon.

    The situation is much simpler than most suspect. It only requires intentionality and feedback to develop these naturally occurring transducers that change these other sources (senses) of information into something meaningful. The fortitude to not give a damn about what anyone else thinks, and also enough maturity to quash the need to tell everyone about your latest internal experiences to justify that you are not really “crazy.”

  10. George you might get some Oscillococcinum. Worked wonders on me last night and this AM. Have used for many years with great results. Available at most grocery and drug stores.

  11. “Welcome to retinal afterburn. >>Many people call this an aura.<< Because color may vary (based on backgrounds and lighting) all kinds of mystical crap is attributed to it.
    Honestly, I don’t buy it."
    You know I had heard of Retinal afterburn and even studied it for a while but never really gave it much thought till this mornings blog.. I had always associated auras to an effect known as Kirlian Photography where we emit an electrical coronal discharge that can be captured on just about anything..
    Now that I am thinking about Retinal Afterburn I am kind of curious and wondering.. could that possibly be a source of our dream state.
    Our brains are in essence a master computer computing data that it acquires consciously or unconsciously all day long.. when we go to sleep if we are thinking of a problem we sometimes have a solution to that problem or a pathway to follow..
    would the same thing as afterburn be true of our dream state. similarly I read several papers a day listen to news feeds etc and pick out highlights the same thing in every story.. then put that into a a story fashion giving me the true story of an incident happening in the news minus the swing each source will try to impress on everyone. it is factual for the most part some times it isn't.
    do you think our brains compute all the subliminal messages being sent daily to us then reassembles it in our dreams to form our prophetic dreams..Just curious..